There is so much that I do wrong.
I mess up all the time; as a wife, as a mother, as a role model and as a human being. I am admittedly too self-involved sometimes. I can also be controlling, rigid, boring and easily frustrated.
I do not always provide my husband and children with the undivided attention I see them seeking. I do not always put away my phone when I should be in the moment. I do not always pack the healthiest lunches because I don’t take the time to plan them out. I do use snacks as bribery to get the kids to do something I need/want them to do. I do say all the time “because I said so”. I also constantly rush everyone in the family around (driving them crazy) to meet this imaginary deadline I give myself for everything.
To add that, there are always wet clothes in the washer and no where to transfer them to because the dry clothes are still in the dryer. And, I don’t always fully unload the dishwasher because I am too lazy — I will take enough stuff out to fit the new dirty dishes.
I AM A MESS! I AM SO FAR FROM PERFECT.
But, at the end of the day, I know this about my kids:
They laugh — good, hearty, from the gut laughs — at least five times a day.
They smile at me every at every pickup/dropoff.
They hug me every morning and every night, without provocation.
They tell me they love me, also without provocation.
They are kind to others.
They hold the door for people.
They feel empathy when they see another child hurt or crying.
They work hard in school and in their activities.
And, I know this about my husband:
He loves me enough to go to a stressful job everyday, so that I can stay home with our children.
He still enjoys date nights with me.
He puts up with my many moods.
We still make each other laugh.
We still say “I love you” and kiss every time one of us leaves the house or goes to bed.
And, at the end of the day, I know this about myself:
I love my family with every fiber of my being ad I am trying to be better — a better wife, a better mom, a better example and a better person — each and every day
I vow to never measure my happiness or success by anything other then the amount of kisses I get, hugs I receive, endearing looks aimed in my direction and laughter I hear.