I need to be a better person. I know that I am a good person and overall a good wife and mother, but I certainly have room for improvement and I am constantly striving to be the best me that I can be. Which begs me to ask myself, “If the whole world was watching, would I still behave the way I do at times?” Hell no, definitely not.
You see the thing is (and maybe you are like me), I put on a pretty good front. No, I’m not lying or faking who I am, but I tend to be more compassionate toward those that I love in public versus in the privacy of our own home. If I could pick one thing to change in order to become a better version of myself, it would be to rid this discord from my life.
I’ve mentioned before about me being the mom who lost her empathy. Although at times I outright question where my sense of compassion and support for those close to me has gone, I know exactly where it has gone — it is hiding under my ever-growing to-do list, stress, exhaustion, and anxiety. Yet, I suspect that if I made even the smallest amount of effort to place my empathy and compassion above those things, I would be more productive with my to-do list, and in turn also experience less stress, exhaustion, and anxiety.
So how am I going to accomplish this? By putting my actions and behavior in check, and by asking myself before I engage in conversation with loved ones or react to something, “if the whole world was watching you, would you still act/respond this way?” I almost guarantee you that more often than not, if I knew people were watching me and could hear me, I wouldn’t respond in such an ugly, abrupt and ill-mannered way. What posing this question does is make me a more present and mindful parent and wife, and more than anything my husband and children deserve that.
You know what I think is something worth pondering further? The fact that I’m telling myself to think about how my private actions at home would be perceived by the whole world, when my children are my whole world — so how they perceive them is actually all that matters.